Throwing tan"drums"

AHh.. Exams have just ended.. Not relieved.. but anxious to know the results... (not curious) just don't want to listen every bit of it.... its just...craps..Why did i do that? why did i study for the last minute ? didn't i know that m y mind is a slow worker.? I need
, i need to knock my head somewhere bcoz i feel that something is wrong there.. Days have passed.. Counting.. how many more days left Nothing.. counting for what? i will encounter false route, leading to unexpected endings.. The path that leads to unhappiness,sadness, remorseful, guilty, bad, all the negative things.. i don't have that courage to surpass this kind of endings its making me more fearful.,scary..but this is just guessing a guess that you will never ever knnow.. only god knows better for us... .....
Give me a room for me to shout....................... Ergh Chikkusho! i 've done st upid mistake Mistakes that will let me remember forever... i think if this situation is going to go further.. i'm gonna lose my self-asteem that lives in every heart...